Suppose We did our work like the snow,
quietly, quietly, leaving nothing out. ~Wendell Berry~
Search me O God and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! and see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! Psalm 139:23-24
This Psalm has been the prayer of my heart for the last year and let me assure you our God is faithful.
So it is again that I find myself here in this month of December.. at the end of another blessing of a year. And I've got work to do. The learning kind.. the soul searching, digging deep, sometimes it's ugly and you don't want to see what you find kind of work. Am I really here again? in this same place that I was last year? It seems the discovery is never ending. It's nothing short of amazing how as another year passes God opens my eyes revealing to me a little bit more than he did the year before... pulling back the curtain to shine his light on what's really there hiding in the dark. It's a tangled up mess there in the dark corners of my heart and even though it's hard and certainly not pretty.. I am filled with hope and Joy knowing that what God is working out in and through me will be for my good and all to His Glory. And so here I sit at the beginning of December... the last month of the year, preparing my heart and mind for some deep soul digging and change making. And so it goes.. in order to actually attempt this again I'm choosing to clear out some clutter and unplug from the distractions of social media until January.. when things are fresh and new... like the snow that falls and does its work quietly, quietly, leaving nothing out.